Forgiveness

I really, really want to forgive you.
Because i'm not even allowed to be angry with you.
I really try hard to forgive.

I close my eyes and wait for a miracle.
To fix the scattered broken pieces.
But still, nothing happens.
Not even a little change.

So i pray to God.
Please ease my way.
To forgive you soon.
Before the wind stop blewing.
Before the sun stop shining.
Before tears start drying.

September, is it going to be a lovely month?

Heyya !

Agustus sudah berlalu dan September telah dimulai.

Agustus adalah salah satu bulan yang cukup bermakna dalam kehidupan saya.
Karena agustus adalah bulan kelahiran ayah dan teman-teman dekat saya !
Jadi ceritanya Agustus ini lebaranan dan seperti biasa, temen-temen SMA pulang.
We were havin fun you know, we did all the stuff as usual, karaokeing, eating brunch, lunch, dinner and snacking like krazeh. Sushi is always on the list. Sanjo-sanjo, dan ditraktir dedek uda nya nidya.
To be honest my dad's bday wasnt so exciting this year hahahaha. Well we surprised him with a cake and he was happy. But where's the bday dinnerrrr paaa? you owe us one :p
And also i decided to learn how to ride a matic car, thanks to my best teacher and driver *loh* ayurari, ended up quite well.

Then by the end of the month, me and my friends attending KONIKA which was held in Palembang. It's really hard to wake up early for this "mantan koas" hahaha but after it ended i kinda missed it a bit.... especially the foods LOL. nah actually i really miss the atmosphere, attending a big crowded - national congress as a participant, real general practitioner, its fun. Although "if" at the end i'm not aiming to be a pediatrician, i will still treasure the knowledges.

September started with a bit bad shocking news of my father. The diseases that have been inherited in families, blah, i should really avoid any kind of roasted food from now.Please pray for him, for a long healthy life, for a happy family :D
Then after a while, finally i got accepted to work in hospital :') yaaaaaaaaaaay !!! thanks for all yhe wishes guys, hhahahaa. Things doing good till now, got more offer and offer, thank God for the endless bless.


That's all for now folks. Now my life has to move on the next chapter, after i got a decent job, now its time to get a decent................. beep.











NB : currently reading "orange marmalade (manhwa) by seokwoo
"cheese in the trap"
i watche friends over flower, and drooling for machu picchu :'(

Deeply sorry.

When God open the door you don't even want to enter.
When God offer a path you never want to choose.
When God unlock the chest you don't even want to see.

Will it be forgivable to just let them away.. Leave them just like that.
Will i be sorry.
Will i regret it.
Will you say i'm such a fool.

It's not that i'm not being grateful.
But yes i'm afraid of letting go opportunities that other people willing to die for.

Raja Ampat - WOW, Fantastic Baby !!

*Reminder* Akan diceritakan secara dramatis dan tragis, karena ini merupakan liburan "terakhir" sebelum internship, hiks.

Here we go.




Jadi cerita ini dimulai ketika, tante gw yang single itu udah terlalu berkecukupan, dan punya ponakan nganggur yang staminanya masih kuat, lagi libur, dan mau diajak susah, serta suka yang gratisan.
Maka disinilah gw, Tangerang, lagi.

Sebenernya gw agak males dan agak capek packing sih, apalagi emak gw - wuiw, udah ogah banget dia bayar2in tiket, tapi karena tante gw "setengah" memaksa, jadi gw iyakan ajakan dia yang kesekian kalinya ini, ke daerah resiko tinggi malaria, ke daerah yang katanya Trinity surga tingkat-9, yang dipuja-puja orang se Indonesia, tujuan wisata dambaan semua divers, RAJA AMPAT.

Sebelum pergi gw browsing-browsing tentang apa aja yang perlu dibawa dan dipersiapkan kesana, berhubung gw gak bisa Diving, jadi gw cuma persiapkan buat gw snorkeling sama "soft trekking" ke puncak Wayag yang ternyata ga ada soft soft nya sama sekali. Bujug !

Ini barang2 yang gw siapin :
1. Lotion anti nyamuk. (Anti nyamuk elektrik biasanya udah disiapin kok di resort)
2. Baju2 kaos tangan panjang dan celana panjang, kalo treking batunya tajem juga lo.
3. Lotion anti UV.
4. Baju renang
5. Obat anti malaria buat profilaksis, kebanyakan baca web gw pusing & kemaren gw minum "Suldox" sedangkan tante gw minum "Kina"
6. Spatu keds. Yang gak licin, tante gw pake sepatu tenis malah. hahahaha
7. Sampoo sama sabun, soalnya gw ga suka sabun hotel. oya sikat gigi juga ga dikasih di hotel.
8. Kamera dooooooooong.
9. Tas kecil yang cukup dompet sama botol minum.
10. Topi juga boleh.

Tapi berhubung jerawat gw lagi bersemi banget, gw cuma berharap trekingnya aja sih yg mesti sukses.
Dan perjalanan pun dimulai !!!

A. Bandara Soekarno Hatta - Bandara Sultan Hassanudin di Makasar, kira2 2 jam.
Gw naik merpati, bagus sih, dapet makan, pokoknya kaya garuda tapi pesawat lama gitu, pramugarinya ramah2. Tapi sempet delay 1 jam. okeeee... santai santai. Bandara Makasarnya bagus sih, tapi ribut banget karena penerbangan banyak, penumpang banyak, gatenya pisah tapi panggilannya campur aduk jadi satu gak abis-abis. Pegawainya masih muda-muda banget. Pas di Makasarnya DELAY 5 JAM. BUSYEEEEEEET.

B. Makasar - Bandara Domine Eduar Osok di Sorong
Setelah delay berkepanjangan, sampe ada bapak papua ngamuk2, barulah kita sedikit diperhatiin dan pesawat pengganti dikirim. Tante gw ngomel, dia bilang : Ini deh mbak, Indonesia itu indah banget, tapi kalo begini terus kan capek juga. Fasilitasnya yang sulit. Pelayanan gak bagus. Jadi Indonesia Timur ini makin susah dijangkau, cuma demi Alamnya aja yang mau kita lihat. Iya sih, tante gw ke Pulau Komodo juga begini, jadi dia parno mau ke Pulau Moyo nanti.
Sampe di Sorong, pesawat muter-muter lama banget sebelum landing.. gak ngerti gw apa karena landasannya dipake anak-anak maen bola apa gimana.. yang pasti bandaranya.. kaya bandara PLG/MDN lama, panas, jelek, kumel......

C. Sorong - Raja Ampat Diving Lodge Resort
Itu dia nama tempat gw nginep, yang punya orang Bali, jadi katanya ga semahal resort sebelah yang dikelola Bule dan cuma Bule yang boleh nginep. Kamarnya bagus, pake kelambu, cuma gw selalu masalahnya di AIR. Gw males banget mandi air laut. Busa sabun ga muncul, jerawat makin banyak, abis mandi bukan rasanya makin bersih, malah lengket. Jadilah dibilas pake air mineral botolan gitu. Oiya, disini juga Go Green dan hemat air gitu, jadi botol air minum kita ga boleh sembarang buang, dan tiap hari ga dikasih botol air baru, cukup diisi di restoran, begeto. Makanannya enak, pegawai hotel baik2, cuma gw kurang suka sama Local guidenya yang biasaaaa... anak2 muda setempat yg rada asal kerjanya, tapi so far mereka ramah dan mau ngejelasin.



Gw cuma 2 hari di Raja Ampat, tapi cukuplah kalo ga diving. Gw liat orang2 diving sampe 4x sehari, tengah malem juga. wooow.
Hari 1 kita ke Wayag, dimana kita akan melihat pemndangan yang SELALU ada kalo orang2 di majalah lagi bahas Raja Ampat. The ultimate view from Wayag peak. Naeknya perjuangan, batunya ya ampun beneran kalo kepeleset bisa beret.


Yang gw baca di majalah naeknya cuma 10-20 menit. Apaanyaaaaaaaa... bengek. lumayan terjal, 60an derajatlah kayaknya, pertengahan atas udah batu semua, yang bawah tanah licin, untuk banyak batang buat pegangan.

Begitu naek, gw langung keinget sama Ha Long Bay di Vietnam. Mirip, tapi beda. Raja Ampat lebih bagus, airnya biru, hijau, dan agak putih pasir, birunya itu bagussssssssssssssssssss banget, dan carshnya ada pohon-pohonnya. Kalo Ha long bay, naeknya emang lebih enak karena ada tangga dan sebelum kesana kita disuguhi nginep di kapal kayu yang bagus banget itu.





hayooo mana Ha Long bay mana Raja Ampat. Hahahahahaa.

Terus ke tempat dimana Suku Airborex tinggal (duh bener gak sih nulisnya) dan keliling-keliling ke sekitar situ deh, liat Lost Island yang deket pulau Roti dan teluk Kabui.


Begitulah perjalanan gw selama ke Raja Ampat. Semales2nya dan sebosen2nya gw ngeliat pantai, tetep kalo fotonya diliat-liat lagi, gw gak abis fikir, Indonesia Raya, Subhanallah banget :)

Oiya, pas pulang Merpati delay lagi 2 jam. Allahuakbar -_____________-

Sekianlah perjalanan ini, gw pulang ke rumah, ke Raja Ampat kaya abis mimpi. Segera gw kembali menjadi asisten rumah tangga sementara agi, hiks.
Tapi sekarang ga lagi, karena asisten baru telah datang, penantian panjang, 5 tahun !!! hahaahahahahahahahaaa.


Dan sekarang apa sih kegiatan gw, setelah pembantu dateng?
Makin males yang pasti, hahaha.
Doain ya, ilmu yang udah gw timba selama 5 tahun lebih itu ga ilangm, Internship. I'm coming !

Recommended destination for honeymoon :))

I should really thank God for all the things i've got until now.

Well, i just got back from my last trip, hmm it's about 1 week ago :p
Might be the last 2 trip before my internship thingy. Hic Hic.

So far that was the best, yes i really mean it, THE BEST trip i've joined so far, i'll tell you why :
1. I'd love to travel in group, with many people, and the were 25 people on the bus with many different personalities. I'm not the type who will say Hi first anw, so i found that they are quite playful and ENERGETIC. We even had 2 couples of oma and opa that enthusiastically follow all the plan, even trace a low cave and walk all along Ephesus.
2. what i really enjoy is that none of them are addicted to shopping, so it's a really joyful with pure intention to visit a new place, enjoy the surroundings without any shouts of "eh gw mau beli ini dong, eh gila ini merk ini belom ada nih di indo".
3. I'm so blessed that i'm able to visit one of two country that lay in 2 continents.
4. This country is dominate by moslem. Thank God, i didn't walk around like an alien.
5. ALL IN ONE TRIP. Religious, yes. Beautiful, EXACTLY ! Natural environments, check. Modern yet antique, ancient, YES ! HOT AIR BALLOOOOOON YESSSSS. SNOW, definitely yes XD. Too many places to capture, camera overloaded, hahaaaahaha. AND i dont want to end this 9 days trip aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaak.
6. And it end up with passing UKDI. ALhamdulillah ya Allah.

After all of that, i can forget the pain of 12 hours sitting on the plane and 5 hours jetlag. LOL


1. Topkapi. You can see Phrophet's beard hair here, Tongkat Nabi Musa and many other.
2. Blue Mosque. Just wonderful. And you see that ugly coat? huh. SO OLD fashioneeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeed. LOL
3. Near the spice market. Much more smaller than Grand Bazaar, cheaper though ;p Burungnya GENDUT GENDUT !! di Mekah ga gendut begitu.
4. Ataturk Mousoleum. Great building. I pick this soldier because he's much more handsome and taller than the other one, eh. *focus*
5. Ephesus. Great. I'd love to see more historical ruinings and buildings XD Mau Yunai, mau Mesir !!!!
6. Some shops near Green mosque. I love the colours :D

There you are. I hope you enjoy those photos, and i really really wish that all of us can visit this country :p
Might be my future honeymoon destination. hihihihi.

Antara sulung dan bungsu

Sepucuk percakapan seorang mama dan anak sulung serta anak bungsu nya di BBM, pada waktu yang kurang lebih sama.
Waktu itu sang mama lagi ke luar kota nih ceritanya.

1. MAMA (M) DAN ANAK SULUNG (AS)

AS : Hai ma, lagi ngapain ?
M : Hai, lagi makan siang. mbak sudah makan?
AS : Udah ma. Hotelnya enak ?
M : Ya enak. tapi mama gak jalan-jalan.
AS : Kapan pulangnya, hari ini kan?
M : Ya, nanti sore. Jangan lupa dedek disuruh makan ya. Beresin rumah
AS : Ya ma.
................................................


2. MAMA (M) DAN ANAK BUNGSU (AB)

AB : Mamaaa, lagi ngapain?
M : Hai, mama lagi di hotel aja. Dedek sudah makan? Sudah pulang?
AB : Sudah ma. Mama pulang kapan?
M : Nanti sore nak
AB : Nanti pesen pizza ya maaaa.. (smiley senyum)
M : Ya, boleh sayang. Tapi jangan lupa beresin bajunya ya. (smiley senyum)
AB : Ya maaaa (smiley hugs)


Ada perbedaan signifikan? HAHAHAHAHAHAA

One happy live

We are God's perfect creatures.
Too perfect that God give us an ability to think and feel.
To survive and to live a life.
To get strong and to get lost.
To get hold and to get lust.
To think and feel imperfect.

Me, i dont even think my life is perfect, but definitely the best one for me.

As i dont have even 1 bestfriend, but hey..
i have friends when i want to eat good things
i have friends when i want to go to the karaoke
i have friends when i need to go to the mall
or only want to go to decent markets
i have friends when i need to talk about boys *eh*
friends for gossiping,
friends when i got confused,
friends when im there not ready for exams,
friends when im ready to escape from home,
friends when a already want to break out from boredom,
friends when i wanna live like beggars,
friends that care me a lot,
friends that accept me the way i am, depend on the mood.
And i dont need to find friends whom will accept me THE WAY I AM, WHATEVER MY MOOD IS, well there wouldnt be any, really, instead you're hoping to be talked behind.

And hey, who said that people who dont buy a castle cant buy one?


Just live realistically :)