its been a while since a had my last holiday.
"makin tinggi pohonnya, makin kencang anginnya"
udah berapa lama ya semenjak masuk koas, rasa-rasanya udah ga tahan lagi. haha. makin di ujung, makin berat rasanya, walaupun stasenya mau ga ada jaga malemmya kek, gak ada tugas sama sekali kek, masuknya siang, tetep aja lama-lama makin berat buat dijalani. Belum lagi kalo inget nanti, setelah jadi dokter, ini otak rasanya tetep aja KOSONG. Belum ada isinya, isinya mantul-mantul keluar, diraba-raba. Apa bisa me'rangkul' gelar dokter ? beban. beban. pake internship pula. Mau kerja pula, Liburan juga tetep pengen, UKDI pula. Ga mau belajar, tapi pengen pinter. emang ya, manusia itu emang rakus Tuhan. Itu baru kepengenannya di bidang pendidikan aja, belum lagi yang lain-lain *ngarep*.
super random banget posting gw ya Alloh -__-
Showing posts with label bipolar. Show all posts
Showing posts with label bipolar. Show all posts
17 May, 2012
02 April, 2010
bipolar - up and down
March 31st
oh gosh. I felt terrible. That was the peak, worst level of my bipolar-like-syndrome. I couldn't find the best way to solve. All i knew that i was wishing that the day ended sooner and i would have forgot the problem in the next day. I couldnt sleep well although i'll have a short-relieveing vacation on friday. I woke up every 1 hour. Crap. I felt so useless. No hope. We should declare the unwanted choice. In other hand, i have to stop this unbelievable - stupid - itching feeling. This is not the right timeeeeee. Wrong wrong wrong. And my kepo level still remains high -.- please someone control me. Pleaseee.
April 1st
i woke up , as a depressed collegian. No passion to study. No willingness to try. I didint even watch the morning infotainment . LOL. Then I watched 3 idiots for the second time. Thanks ratrot. Hahaha. That wass the beginning of my mood elevation. Great. Then my mom fulfiled her promise to buy *something*. Anddd we bought soooo many snacks for friday :) i smell something good.
April 2nd
12:35 wib. Im here. Just heard another wonderful news from ririn. Oh God, No one can ruin my mood today, and i hope this will last at least for the next 1 week :p Alhamdulillah :) now i cant sleep! This is a huge euforia :p
have a great holiday!
oh gosh. I felt terrible. That was the peak, worst level of my bipolar-like-syndrome. I couldn't find the best way to solve. All i knew that i was wishing that the day ended sooner and i would have forgot the problem in the next day. I couldnt sleep well although i'll have a short-relieveing vacation on friday. I woke up every 1 hour. Crap. I felt so useless. No hope. We should declare the unwanted choice. In other hand, i have to stop this unbelievable - stupid - itching feeling. This is not the right timeeeeee. Wrong wrong wrong. And my kepo level still remains high -.- please someone control me. Pleaseee.
April 1st
i woke up , as a depressed collegian. No passion to study. No willingness to try. I didint even watch the morning infotainment . LOL. Then I watched 3 idiots for the second time. Thanks ratrot. Hahaha. That wass the beginning of my mood elevation. Great. Then my mom fulfiled her promise to buy *something*. Anddd we bought soooo many snacks for friday :) i smell something good.
April 2nd
12:35 wib. Im here. Just heard another wonderful news from ririn. Oh God, No one can ruin my mood today, and i hope this will last at least for the next 1 week :p Alhamdulillah :) now i cant sleep! This is a huge euforia :p
have a great holiday!
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