oh may ! here we go =D

FK UNSRI baru aja ngadain PENSI yang udah dijadwalin setiap tahun, dan WOW !! tiap tahun makin seru dan hebohhhh. tiap angkatan berlomba lomba mempertontontan dan mempersembahkan kreasi terbaik mereka mulai dari Stan, tema angkatan, persembahan, yel yel dan band. Dan di PENSI ini juga ada pengumuman pemenang2 dr lomba lomba pekan olahraga FK =] we won many things guys. check out these photos :D







thats all for the first week in this Cheerful May . Have a super good day !

we did it :)

Woahhhh. Finally we passed the 17th block ! I dont know whether the score will be good or just so-so :p but im glad glad glad - SUPER HAPPY its finished! But as usual, the effect of soca = post soca syndrome attacked me .

I solely admit that i wasnt ready for soca - not well prepared. Dehydration due to late osce ended with migrain forced me to do nothing but sleep in the night before soca. Crying was the best thing i could do on that day after having soca.

The prognosis for mcq... I think its bonam buuuuuuttttttt definitely we cant lie on mcq result itself -.-

but hey! Who wants to be crazy and jailed at house and keep moaning & crying for those soca things? Have fun guys! we had a crazy but super fun karaoke time on thursday !! Hahahaha. Started with lady gaga and ended up with the stupid black out, and then we went to check ratrot's eye ( rabunnn ni yeyyy :p )
what a happy thursday ! Thank youuuuuu !



NB : be ready for 18th block ;) pediatry - geriatry. Though one .. lol. Especially for me. Good luck everybody.

heart beat

the smell of chlorine, the elegance of white uniform, the stetoscope is hangin on my neck, the sound of heart beat, drop of blood, please smooth my way, ya Allah. i wont need another masks. all i need is YOU and books.

mandek semandek mandeknya mandek

awal bulan yang sangat buruk. Diawali dengan pertikaian orang orang yang sok , lalu diteruskan dengan tingkah laku orang orang goblok dan kekanak-kanakan, diteruskan dengan gombalan sampah orang yang mabuk cinta, dirusak oleh kelebosan orang yang minta perhatian dan diakhiri dengan kebohongan yang sangat kurang ajar. Semua terjadi hanya dalam 6 hari di awal bulan april. Bulan April memang masih panjang, masih ada hari hari lain di bulan april. Tapi awal bulan yang sumpek ini bikin ilfil. Sekarang tinggal berdoa dan berusaha mati matian buat pertengahan april yang diceriakan oleh ujian. Ya Tuhan, apa salah kalo aku minta masalahnya datang satu satu, jangan keoroyokan gini :(

i dont want the best.

Bagaimana jika, salah satu dari kenalan anda, mengatai anda f*ck di belakang anda ? Mungkin anda akan berkata. Apa peduliku? I dont need them. Dan mungkin masih bisa pasang muka 12 di depan dia. Lain hal nya jika teman dekat anda, mengatai anda munafik, atau sampah masyarakat, atau munak. Wow. I can forgive them ONCE, for the price of friendship. For the precious value of family's name. I can heal the wound. I can fix the broken glass. I can say sorry eventhough the mistakes was not made by me. Once. Then i keep being patient. But you did the mistakes, again. I didnt hear any words like sorry. Not even hi. Was that my turn, again? Do i have to do that, again? Why cant you say sorry for all the things that we've been through. Finally. Jadi selama ini nilainya cuma ini. No more than this. I took care of you. Was i your servant? Setelah bertanya tanya pada orang, yes. You acted like youre the boss. I was the servant. Thanks for opening my eyes pals. I did this again. Shit.
Now after a looooooong time ( too long ) you only say 'duluan ya' and 'hi' . Wew. Nice greetings. Even a dog can bark in front of me and i can consider it as greetings too.

And for you. I dont want to get involved . I only gave some opinions. You might find it as a rude, frontal one. Your problem is as complicated as mine. The same childish action. You just dont wanna listen. No trust. Please remember how many times we've said sorry first to you? No, im not saying : ih, ga ikhlas ya minta maap kmaren. So childish thinking. But hey. What have you done for this? We were friends and.. You still didnt know the real us. We wont steal anybody. We wont kill anybody. We will understand you IF YOU TELL US What you want, what you are afraid of, what the problem are.

For others. I believe you are mature and wise enough to sumarize, conclude an opinion, and understand the real problems not only from one point of view, one side. Dont directly say : minta maaflah, kasian, cuz i already did it for countless time. And you should know which one is the victim. Have a great day buddies. Beware, your best can be the worst :)

bipolar - up and down

March 31st

oh gosh. I felt terrible. That was the peak, worst level of my bipolar-like-syndrome. I couldn't find the best way to solve. All i knew that i was wishing that the day ended sooner and i would have forgot the problem in the next day. I couldnt sleep well although i'll have a short-relieveing vacation on friday. I woke up every 1 hour. Crap. I felt so useless. No hope. We should declare the unwanted choice. In other hand, i have to stop this unbelievable - stupid - itching feeling. This is not the right timeeeeee. Wrong wrong wrong. And my kepo level still remains high -.- please someone control me. Pleaseee.

April 1st
i woke up , as a depressed collegian. No passion to study. No willingness to try. I didint even watch the morning infotainment . LOL. Then I watched 3 idiots for the second time. Thanks ratrot. Hahaha. That wass the beginning of my mood elevation. Great. Then my mom fulfiled her promise to buy *something*. Anddd we bought soooo many snacks for friday :) i smell something good.

April 2nd
12:35 wib. Im here. Just heard another wonderful news from ririn. Oh God, No one can ruin my mood today, and i hope this will last at least for the next 1 week :p Alhamdulillah :) now i cant sleep! This is a huge euforia :p


have a great holiday!

stop pelisss

I made this post when i was remembering a story of my mom, couple weeks after she got her doctor title. My mom was able to stop my grandpa from his bad habit ( smoking ) although it was quite late, because my grandma passed away due to lung cancer, for being a passive smoker for almost 20 years.

Dokter, tapi ngerokok. Wakil rakyat, tapi korupsi. Guru, tapi ga bisa ngasih contoh yg naik ke muridnya. Mestinya menjadi panutan tapi perilakunya malah ga bisa dijadikan panutan. What's the different? That's what people do. They say it's really human things. They're just ordinary people. Oh, please. You choose your own way. Mau jadi dokter, jangan bertingkah kaya tukang sayur. Mau jadi insinyur, jangan bersikap seperti tukang becak. We can do mistakes. Yes, we can. But what is a mistake? A mistake is a failure that you did unpurposely. And smart people won't do it twice, with a purpose and full of consciousness. If so, it's a fake mistake , lie. So please stop pretending that those things are acceptable . Kesalahan yang sering dilakukan tetapkah kesalahan, walaupun nanti nilai'' kesalahan itu sendiri bergeser dan dianggap normal. Stop ngeles, karena itu salah. Kalo kita sudah biasa melakukan kesalahan, ketika kita melakukan kebenaran rasanya aneh. Tapi itu benar! Yang perlu kalian itu hanya membiasakan diri. Kemayoritasan juga sering membuat kita merasa benar, padahal yang banyak dilakukan itu juga belum tentu benar toh. Oke oke?

no offense. Im not saying that *perokok harusnya gak bisa jadi dokter* tapi dokter harusnya ga merokok. Harusnya. *lagi kumat nih idealisnya*

nb : nis, stop ngeles! Stop procrastinating.
See you soon ;)

naik naik ke puncak gunung

Aku sudah mencapai ketinggian.
Bagus, aku masih menapak pada tanah dan batu berbongkah bongkah.
Tak melayang di atas awan terbuai mimpi.
Kenyataan memang seperti ini.
Kanan kiri memang tak indah teman.
Ketika kulihat ke bawah, kupandang keindahan yang telah kulalui sejauh ini.
Sungguh indah.
Tapi aku ingin mencapai puncak.
Aku sudah berjuang lebih keras dari mereka.
Aku sudah mendapati lebih banyak hal.
Disini juga aku mendapat teman, kawan.
Baik yang telah melewati ku pergi ke atas.
Ataupun berselisih jalan ke bawah.
Aku merasa bahagia teman.
Walaupun beberapa memilih mundur.
Rasa lelah menghampiri.
Tapi aku tidak akan mundur , tidak.
Aku memang sedang tak mampu melanjutkan.
Keinginan tak sebanding dengan kemampuanku di saat ini.
Jadi aku akan berhenti sebentar,
menapak,
disini.




Nb : sabar nis , sabar. Satu satu ya :) inget kata orang, God gives you what you need, not what you want. God knows you well & you dont. When you sacrifice for one thing, He gives another things. God may refuse your wish, but He doesnt neglect you. He gives all that you need but you dont do what He wants. You neglect His commands. So why cant He refuse your wishes?

so pure yet so stink.

Anda menambahkan gula dalam susu basi.
Lagi.
Lagi.
Lagi.
Tambah lagi.
Entah lidah anda yang tidak peka.
Atau anda takut merasakannya.

Anda bereksperimen.
Anda tambah garam.
Kopi.
Madu.

Tetap saja , basi.

Tolong dimengerti, basi.

Kebasian itu telah terlalu pekat.
Bahkan orang orang di sekitar tahu bahwa itu basi.
Mungkin mereka hanya tidak mau memberi tahu tentang kebasian itu.
Atau mereka juga tidak dapat merasakan yang basi?
Mungkin suatu saat, jika anda akhirnya mengerti..
Suatu saat dimana susu itu telah sangat super basi.

Ganti gelasnya.
Cari susu lain.
Tambah gula.

Tapi mungkin saat itu anda sudah tidak perlu susu lagi.

meiko - piano song :)

Every little i do, i do for you.
With every little thing i think, i thought of you.

Reff :
and i try so hard not to notice,
i try so hard not to care,
i try so hard not to know that you're not here.
But i'm counting down the hours,
and i'm counting up the days,
i try so hard not to show this side of me.

I'm jealous of the way they walk, the way they talk
Cause i didn't think they knew just what they got
I'm jealous of the way they look, the way they are
When i just wanna be the way we were.

Reff :
and i try so hard not to notice,
i try so hard not to care,
i try so hard not to know that you're not here.
But i'm counting down the hours,
and i'm counting up the days,
i try so hard not to show this side of me.

This side of me...
This side of me..
This side of me..

Ps : cute song, thanks for relieving me. I learn a lesson : beware!! the power of teasing is exist !! :))

kangen komik :))

ah, tiba tiba hari ini keinget komik lama. kangennnnn! sayangnya kemaren lagi jaman bloon banget, blom ngerti yang namanya KOLEKSI hiks hiks. alhasil yang bertahan tinggal sailor moon nomer 17 doang. huhuhu. ini komik yg gw pengeeeeeeen banget cari dan baca lagi.

1. Sailor moon :) ada yg item putih ada yg warna ya, gw suka yg hitem putih.

Sebenernya gw suka karangan naoko takeuchi mulai dr sailor v, maria, dan satu lagiii *lupa* hehehehe. Cowoknya cakep cakep :p

2. Candy candy. Waaaa. I love it! Semua pasti tau candy candy!

3. Little new york . Ini komik pertama yg gw baca setelah gw bisa baca. Bayangin anak sekecil upil baca nih komik. Rada2 ga ngerti. Tp masih inget! *agak aneh* pokoknya ceritanya ttg cewek jepang nikah sama bule deh. Hihi.

4. Topeng kaca bidadari merah : rada nyesel baca nih komik. Karena ga selesaiii. Hukss. Akhirnya gmn sihh?

5. Panic ! : ga selesai juga.. Duh gmn deh :p

Lucu ya, tentang cewek yang kalo lagi kaget berubah jadi rubah. Selaen itu jg gw suka komik komik nya yu asagiri yg laen misalnya ... Hm.. Lupa lagi judulnya..tp ceritanya tentang cowok yg berubah jd serigala kalo lagi bulan purnama. Yay!

6. Ini yang gw penasaran banget. Gw inget ceritanya, tp ga inget judulnya. Ge googling ga dapet2. Hopeless banget :)) ceritanya ttg cewek yatim piatu yang lugu banget, sampe dia ga tau ttg cara pake uang dan beli baju bagus. Tiba2 ada paman kaki panjang yg nyekolahin dia ke asrama bagus tempat org2 kaya, dengan syarat dia cuma bisa kirim surat ke paman kaki panjang itu, tanpa tahu orangnya yang mana dan siapa. Huaaa. Akhirnya dia ketemu kok sama paman itu :) kalo ada yg tau judulnya, tolong kasih tauu ya XD

7. Tales from the darkside bisa dibilang ini satu2nya komik *serem* ya pernah gw baca. Bagus. Dan lagiiiii, gak selesai!!

8. Princess : ini adalah manhwa yang super panjangggggg banget. Ga sempet selesai. Huhu. Sibuk bgt sih buat baca.

Hihihi. Posting kali ini ga jelas lg deh :p cuma kangen kangen bgt sama komik. Buat yang koleksi komik, jaga baek2 ya! Biar ga nyesel gini nantinya :) okey deh. See ya soon !

truly yours

We're living in a world with endless 'pretty' tricky lies and some painful truths. You can choose one. You can do both. You can fool us, but the beauty of lies won't last forever, and the truth won't wait forever. You may fool us, but you'll somehow regret that. For those who've been fooled, please learn something ( and you too, anies! ) . Say the truth, some can't stand the pain, some won't forgive forever, but some with pure mind will pick the flower of the patience that they've planted over the forgiveness land. Do both, well, i'm trying my best to do this. To make it equal, balance. Lie and truth. Feels good sometimes. Hahaha.

And now i need to tell you the truth. I'm not a hypocrite. No, im not lying! I'm not a liar :)) well yeah i do lie sometimes. Hey? Did you say i'm lying to you? No, im not. You're the liar!! Ouuuchh so??? Now this is confusing :B Just act well. Play safe. Dont lie too often :p

nb : Some can't stand the pain of truth. Most are addicted to the pain of lie.
Some are craving for the truth, Some choose to be fooled by lie.
You? Im feeding you with delicious lies.
Me? Im sick of lying. I also need some lies. Endless one please. So i dont need to know to truth.