once upon a time

there will be times when i dont want to come,
i dont want to see you.
i feel like puking when i see you.
im so lazy to talk to you.

there will be times when i dont want to move,
i dont want to think cuz i have too many things in my head.
i dont want to solve anything cuz you dont want and will not solve a thing.

there will be times
when i will hate you to the bones.
cuz i think
you..
will..
never..
do..
the right things.

will ya?

will the chance come?
would you make a change?

since fairy is not exist, i wont wait.
miracle wont come.

this is definitely insane.

Bipolar I Disorder--Diagnostic Features (DSM-IV, p. 350)

The essential feature of Bipolar I Disorder is a clinical course that is characterized by the occurrence of one or more Manic Episodes or Mixed Episodes. Often individuals have also had one or more Major Depressive Episodes. Episodes of Substance-Induced Mood Disorder (due to the direct effects of a medication, or other somatic treatments for depression, a drug of abuse, or toxin exposure) or of Mood Disorder Due to a General Medical Condition do not count toward a diagnosis of Bipolar I Disorder. In addition, the episodes are not better accounted for by Schizoaffective Disorder and are not superimposed on Schizophrenia, Schizophreniform Disorder, Delusional Disorder, or Psychotic Disorder Not Otherwise Specified.

Symptoms of Bipolar Disorder
Some symptoms typical of those who have bipolar disorder include:

- Feelings of extreme elevation and
deep depression at the same time [ yeah.. ]
- Large variations in work quality and output [ urmm.. ]
- Periods of great optimism followed or
preceded by periods of great pessimism [ ah.. that's.. yeah ]
- Overly happy (or sad) period [ oh my ]
- Racing thoughts - jump from one thought
to another very quickly [ not really ]
- Extreme irritability [ sometimes ]
- Lack of concentration [ no doubt ]
- Hopelessness [ hope = 1 out of ten ]
- Thoughts of death or suicide [ well.. ]

Those who experience these symptoms need to contact a physician for proper diagnosis of their condition.

i should be worried. ck

me neither

i'm tired of being clown. i'm tired for being prankster. i'm too tired to cheer other up. i'm tired for pretending, that im happy. i'm tired for being dependent. i'm tired for living life full of limitation and restriction. im too tired to say yes. im too tired to please you. i'm tired to keep my own temper. is it bad for being bad for a while? is it bad to please myself by neglecting you. i guess so. i dont care. you dont care, me neither.

Kahlil Gibran - On children

Anakmu bukan anakmu.

Anak adalah kehidupan,

mereka
sekedar lahir
melaluimu
tetapi bukan berasal darimu.

Walaupun bersamamu
tetapi bukan milikmu.

Curahkan kasih sayang
tetapi bukan memaksakan pikiranmu
,
karena mereka dikaruniai pikirannya sendiri.

Berikan rumah untuk raganya,
tetapi tidak jiwanya,
karena
jiwanya milik masa mendatang, yang tak bisa kau datangi
bahkan dalam mimpi sekalipun.

Bisa saja mereka mirip dirimu,
tetapi jangan pernah
menuntut mereka jadi seperti sepertimu.

Sebab kehidupan itu tidak berjalan mundur,
dan
tidak tenggelam di masa lampau.

Kaulah busur, dan anak-anakmulah anak panah yang melucur.
Sang Pemanah mahatahu sasaran bidikan keabadian.

Dia menentangmu dengan kekuasaanNya,
Hingga anak panah itu melesat, jauh serta cepat.

Meliuklah dengan suka cita dalam rentangan tangan Sang
Pemanah,

Sebab Dia mengasihi anak-anak panah yang melesat laksana kilat
,
Sebagaimana pula dikasihi-Nya busur yang mantap.

apa yang terjadi di bulan juli

JULI

foto pas MUNAS.. i've told you im not a SKSD person so.. i oly took what i want to :)


and then. blok 19 - blok *clinical* terakhir berakhir dengan.. hampa dan biasa biasa saja *loh*

minggu pertama liburan.. ngehedon .. ckckck..
anak2 udah pada ngacir ke jakarta lah, bali lah, pulang kampung lah..owwww..

minggu kedua liburan.. cuma duduk duduk di rumah..
proposal? nanti nanti yaaaaaaaaaaa.. hahahahaa

minggu ketiga liburan.. hmm. i will do something - serious - hectic holiday *gaya*
wish me luck XD


nb : kayanya mesti segera pasang speedy lagi nih. skripsi oh skripsi... im coming bibehhhhhhh.

All the right moves .. In wrong places.

All the right friends
in all the wrong places
So yeah, we're going down
They got all the right moves
in all the right faces
So yeah, we're going down

Just paint the picture, of a perfect place They got it better than what anyone's told you
They'll be the King of Hearts,
and you're the Queen of Spades
Then we'll fight for you like we were your soldiers
I know we've got it good
But they got it made,
And the grass is getting greener each day I know things are looking up
But soon they'll take us down,
before anybody's knowing our name.

They got all the right friends
in all the right places
So yeah, we're going down
We've got all the right moves and all the wrong faces
So yeah, we're going down
They said, everybody knows, everybody knows where we're going
Yeah, we're going down
They said, everybody knows, everybody knows where we're going
Yeah, we're going down

Do you think I'm special?
Do you think I'm nice?
Am I bright enough to shine in your spaces?
Between the noise you hear
And the sound you like
Are we just sinking in an ocean of faces?
It can be possible
that rain can fall,
Only when it's over our heads
The sun is shining everyday,
but it's far away
Over the world is death.
They got, They got,

All the right friends in all the wrong places
So yeah, we're going down
They got,
all the right moves and all the wrong faces
So yeah, we're going down
They said, everybody knows, everybody knows where we're going
Yeah, we're going down
They said, everybody knows, everybody knows where we're going
Yeah, we're going down

It don't matter what you see.
I know I could never be
Someone that'll look like you.
It don't matter what you say,
I know I could never face someone that could sound like you.

All the right friends in all the wrong places So yeah, we're going down
They got all the right moves and all the right faces
So yeah, we're going down
All the right friends in all the wrong places So yeah, we're going down
They got all the right moves and all the right faces
So yeah, we're going down
They said, everybody knows, everybody knows where we're going
Yeah, we're going down
They said, everybody knows, everybody knows where we're going
Yeah, we're going down.
Yeah, we're going down.
Yeah, we're going down.
(All the right moves, hey)
Yeah, we're going down
(All the right moves, hey)
Yeah, we're going down

vampire versus werewolf

aaaaaaaaahh. Lama ga nulis nih *alah lebay*

well well well. 1 minggu yang lalu gw dan anak2 AMSA Palembang baru aja jor-joran ngadain munas amsa dan semua tepar. Acaranya lumayan lancar walopun adalah kekurangan kecil disana sini dan kekesalan dimana mana but the most important thing is it ended well =) gw sebagai GM nya UGM merasa bahagia , semangat dan ikhlas menjadi GM mereka yang manis manis. Lumayan dapet kenalan dari berbagai univ. ( i will upload the pics soon ). Semua panitia udah kerja keras maksimal dan optimal ( ahem ). Dan gw dengan berbagai kekurangan gw sudah berusaha abis2an jg buat ga jaim *hiks.. Maap.. Emang dr oroknya ga bisa sksd*

abis acara munas, aktivitas gw sebagai mahasiswi agak2 kacau balau mengingat stamina yg turun drastis dan siklus sirkadian yang hancur lebur mengakibatkan gw selalu tidur pagi siang sore malam dengan indahnya. Tidurnya ga kira2 ga pernah mimpi. Bangun tp langsung tidur lagi. Ga pengen belajar, napsu makan masih tinggi. Masih ngehedon, dan masih pengen jalan2 terus. 1 minggu menjelang ujian blok dan anak muda ini malah antri dengan khidmatnya sampe nyium2 kaca pim21 buat nonton eclipse ( heahaha. Im the first tickets buyer for the eclipse premier @PIM loh ) hahaha. Asli geblek. Inget aja teman teman, prinsip membeli tiket nonton : anda menendang atau anda ditendang !!! :))

furthermore, despicable me 3D is available @pim ( he? ) im gonna watch it next week :D