sorry i cant come, auntie.

gara gara ujan. jadi inget lagi *huh*
kisah kisah sampah yang harusnya sih sudah berakhir. Diawali oleh masalah sampah dan berakhir juga seperti sampah.

Im really sorry i cant come auntie. I dont want to see your daughter too often. I dont even want to see her once a day, if i could. She keeps hurting me. Innocence sometimes hurts us also, rite?

oh may ! here we go =D

FK UNSRI baru aja ngadain PENSI yang udah dijadwalin setiap tahun, dan WOW !! tiap tahun makin seru dan hebohhhh. tiap angkatan berlomba lomba mempertontontan dan mempersembahkan kreasi terbaik mereka mulai dari Stan, tema angkatan, persembahan, yel yel dan band. Dan di PENSI ini juga ada pengumuman pemenang2 dr lomba lomba pekan olahraga FK =] we won many things guys. check out these photos :D







thats all for the first week in this Cheerful May . Have a super good day !

a disease of the mind

We're in the city of wonder, ain't gonna play nice.
Watch out, you might just go under. Better think twice, your train of thought will be altered.
So if you must faulter be wise.
Your mind is in disturbia.

Rihanna - Disturbia

please make it fair & equal, God :)

Gain much, lose more. Gain one, lose one. I think im good enough, in fact i cant even finish half of this rocky way. But i have to, so i will lose so many things. Well you dont smooth my way. At least dont make it tougher, harder. Please. Im begging.

yes. 10 versus one. All ten wants to be heard by one. But all the ten dont want to hear one. Pufttt. How come? So funny. LoL.

This is our successful-gonna-be project. Not mine. Im starving here. Bye bye. Hope the loss is equal with the final result =) victory !

bday girl :)

hohohohohoho, lagi mood ngupload poto 2 orang teman teman saya yang jelek :)) yang baru saja berulang tahun ke 20 !!! welcome to the second decade of your life ( nyahahahaa ) dan juga suka duka blok 17 yang baru saja berakhir .

praktikum di RSMH :) we'll miss you, obgyn departement !


nonton voli !


nurek. ( belom ditraktir nih ) hahahahaa


here you go, reren :)

his friends - the letter

A secret is revealed. The memories is recalled. I've reached another milestones. Without you. Its been 2 years. I got nothing, but memories. Its okay. Remembering your deep voice ( you speak English very very well *stunning*) , your papers hit my head, your charming smile, and our last 3 short conversations. My last 3 messages. Made many reasons to meet you. You are too good yet forbidden. Yes you are. And i was trapped in a delusional maze. Drunk.

So this is your fave song : iris - goo goo dolls. It will always be my fave also, together with enrique iglesias - somebody's me. You dont have to come back here. I wish u wont come back. Its amazing to know you, recalling your smile. But i cant stand your return. Have a good day mister :)

terkurung dalam sangkar emas, tenggelam dalam kolam susu, hanyut

silat lidah. salah lagi. salah lagi. ada aja salahnya. yang benar selalu dia. yang salah selalu saya. memang saya tidak punya hak apa apa, walaupun saya sudah melakukan kewajiban kewajiban saya, termasuk beberapa kewajiban seorang babu, pembantu, tukang cuci. dia harus didengar, ditaati. saya ingin paling tidak saya didengar. Yang salah selalu saya, beserta arus arus di sekitar saya.

Rasanya pengen hanyut di tengah arus ini. Syukur syukur bisa hanyut, nyangkut, dibawa terbang bangau, nyangkut di pancing orang. Hanyut saja rasanya pun masih perlu usaha.

Sebenarnya yg paling bagus melawan arus. Tapi bagaimana? Dengan cara sok bergaya gembel? Belajar tanpa henti? Atau nyembah nyembah matahari biar pinter? Atau ngepet? Hahaha. Mimpi.

Bertahan? Tidak ada lagi pegangan. Sudah bertahan segan hanyut tak mau. Saya sudah nyemplung.

Emang susah kalo gaya hidupnya begitu. Sigh. Itu toh yang namanya prinsip. Kalo jelek bikin gondok setengah mati. Prinsip yang parahnya kepentok zaman. Sudah mesti diperbaharui. Dengan prosesor lama, saya kuatir hal itu adalah amat sangat mustahil sekali. Sangat mustahil. Sangat.