Yes, you you you.

You dry the tears that fall from my eyes.
You bring me sunshine to brighten my sky.
You rescue me when I'm scared and alone
And take my hand to lead me home.

I let it fall, my heart

I let it fall, my heart,
And as it fell you rose to claim it
It was dark and I was over
Until you kissed my lips and you saved me

My hands, they're strong
But my knees were far too weak
To stand in your arms
Without falling to your feet

But there's a side to you
That I never knew, never knew.
All the things you'd say
They were never true, never true,
And the games you play
You would always win, always win.

But I set fire to the rain,
Watched it pour as I touched your face,
Well, it burned while I cried
'Cause I heard it screaming out your name, your name

When I lay with you
I could stay there
Close my eyes
Feel you here forever
You and me together
Nothing is better

Let it burn.

Romeo's shadow behind the door

I only need to see your back for 5 seconds.
I only need to hear your voice once a week.
I only need to see you again soon.
I'm happy just to hear you say hi. or even a quick glance with light smile.
And i'm so surprised when i could start the conversation first.

Why?


I must be out of my mind.



















Love is difficult.

preparing myself to the higher stage : ko-ass

Hello baby bala bala :D

maap ya udah lama ditinggal nih, hihii. anisnya lagi sok sibuk sih. nyentuh laptop aja udah jaraaaaaang buanget deh.

this is just around 1-2 weeks after my S.Ked graduation, yaaaay *clapclap*
i could pass em all and now i'm entering a *not so new* life :p the hospital.

this might be the ending point of my blogging life, or at least long hiatus :D
but, i promise you that i will post some when i have time !

semoga mulai dari sekarang ini, kita semua bisa jadi orang yg selalu lebih baik, baik, baik setiap harinya, dan mensyukuri apa yang telah kita dapatkan setiap harinya.

and i will fight for the best !

i put some pictures from my last special holiday before the clerkship >< hahaha. already need another vacation badly here ma !!!

and i also put some pics from one of the greatest day in my life :)

random october, november, december

hahaha, halo halo. gilak! jamuran abis yah ni blog, mana nih yang punya? masih niat gak ngeblog :)) makanya blognya di sapu dong *loh*

well well guys. its been a long, random, unique, stressful, cheerful phase of my life. apa saja yang terjadi? buanyaaaaakkk. nih rentetan jadwal2 saya bulan lalu *cih*

OKTOBER
1. Oktober, ada ulang tahun perkawinan orang tua sayaaa :D hore. its been 21 years !
semoga panjang umur ya ma, pa :) semoga makin sukses dan makin lengket. plikitiw.
2. Dikejar deadline sidang proposal skripsi ( lebih tepatnya menyia2kan waktu )
heahahaha. OMG. gw juga heran, beneran deh, ini gen *procastinating* dapet
darimana yah? kronik abis. 2 minggu terakhir beneran ngerjain skripsi abis2an.
Ketemu pembimbing tiap hari, ngeprint tiap hari, menghabiskan 2,5 rim kertas a4
70 gram, dan sudah minta maap pada pohon-pohon karena telah menghabiskan begitu
banyak kertas ( heuheu)
3. Sidang. dan tragedi colokan babi yang nyaris merusak masa depan nusa bangsa, jiwa
raga anak muda pemuda pemudi Indonesia, gara2 lupa bawa batere leptop. hihihi.
Ditambah lagi slide skripsi yang diedit abis2an oleh saudari kiki sekunder di
detik2 terakhir ( sumpah horor abs ki ) dengan semena2 nya dia menghapus dab
memotong slide akuuu, tp akhirnya tindakannya memang benar :p Lalu dapet penguji
yg tidak diduga2, anda tahu siapa.. makin deg deg an. Untunglah akhirnya Beliau
baik walaupun agak ******* alias minta "sedikit" perbaikan :)) but, so far so
good ;)


NOVEMBER !!
1. kekronisan dunia perkorea-an makin menjadi2. Suju pudar, SHINee datang. SHINee
masih berkobar kobar, Mblaq merayu2. nyeeets. Gara2 mblaq mulai tergoda buat
download dari youtube dan sumpah daftar donlotan jadi panjang abisssssss. mamaaa,
help me !! dubuu help meee, dedek help meeee :p
2. My birthday :D well. pertama kalinya di kasih surprise di rumah. hahaha. they
plotted to attack me early in the morning and called my mom to not waking me up.
Unfortunately my mom has given me an earlier surprise..teehehehe. jadi pas mereka
dateng gw udah bangun, walopun masih tidur2an sih. nyahaha. thanks yaaaa. you
made my day :*
3. Ternyata si ayurari binti bambang itu punya rencana lagi yang bikin astaganaga
banget pegelnya. emang kita kambing apa diiket2 di phon terus disiram? mana
rumahnya di deket tepi jalan raya pusri lagiiii.. hahahahaaa !! tunggu
pembalasankuuuuu *berkobar*
4. nilai keluar.. agak sesuai harapan, bonus 0,02.. hahahahaaaaa.
5. Sakit Tipes alias tifoid alias thyphoid. Sumpah ga enak teman teman... mana lama,
pegel, meriang, lemes, cengeng, lidah pahit.. huhuhu. ampun.. alhasil ga ikutan
soca blok 21.. bagaimana basib saya, saya pun tak tahu =_= setelah 1 minggu demam
baru cek darah, salmonella nya 8. mantappp.
6. Nyoba Sushi. enak !! asal bukan yang original, gw masih bisa melahapnya, nyam !

DESEMBER
1. HEYYYYYYYYaaaaa !! ayo ayo semua cepetan selesein skripsinyaaa :D semua mau
liburan kan? ya dong :) saya sudah sampe hasil loh.. yahh walopun ga secepet
tetangga sebelah, lumayanlah :p
2. Sakit lagi. OKE. whats wrong with me? cuma tidur2an di rumah aja bisa sakit. oh
God. beneran parno deh, dengan sistem imunitas begini bloonnya -_-
3. Ngantuk ah :))

thats all folks. will be around soon !

once upon a time

there will be times when i dont want to come,
i dont want to see you.
i feel like puking when i see you.
im so lazy to talk to you.

there will be times when i dont want to move,
i dont want to think cuz i have too many things in my head.
i dont want to solve anything cuz you dont want and will not solve a thing.

there will be times
when i will hate you to the bones.
cuz i think
you..
will..
never..
do..
the right things.

will ya?

will the chance come?
would you make a change?

since fairy is not exist, i wont wait.
miracle wont come.

this is definitely insane.

Bipolar I Disorder--Diagnostic Features (DSM-IV, p. 350)

The essential feature of Bipolar I Disorder is a clinical course that is characterized by the occurrence of one or more Manic Episodes or Mixed Episodes. Often individuals have also had one or more Major Depressive Episodes. Episodes of Substance-Induced Mood Disorder (due to the direct effects of a medication, or other somatic treatments for depression, a drug of abuse, or toxin exposure) or of Mood Disorder Due to a General Medical Condition do not count toward a diagnosis of Bipolar I Disorder. In addition, the episodes are not better accounted for by Schizoaffective Disorder and are not superimposed on Schizophrenia, Schizophreniform Disorder, Delusional Disorder, or Psychotic Disorder Not Otherwise Specified.

Symptoms of Bipolar Disorder
Some symptoms typical of those who have bipolar disorder include:

- Feelings of extreme elevation and
deep depression at the same time [ yeah.. ]
- Large variations in work quality and output [ urmm.. ]
- Periods of great optimism followed or
preceded by periods of great pessimism [ ah.. that's.. yeah ]
- Overly happy (or sad) period [ oh my ]
- Racing thoughts - jump from one thought
to another very quickly [ not really ]
- Extreme irritability [ sometimes ]
- Lack of concentration [ no doubt ]
- Hopelessness [ hope = 1 out of ten ]
- Thoughts of death or suicide [ well.. ]

Those who experience these symptoms need to contact a physician for proper diagnosis of their condition.

i should be worried. ck